Inner peace - Outer peace
My spiritual journey
May 8, 2011 2:50 PM

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About 6 years ago I felt like I desperately needed to make a change in my life. Not an external change, but internal. I had no idea how to make that change though, nor did I have any type of perception of what that change would entail. All I knew was that my way of thinking, living and interacting with people was not how I wanted it to be. I felt like I was stuck in a type of reflex living and simply did what I thought I was supposed to do. Which was functional for a while. Until I could no longer suppress the intensity of unease I felt in every cell of my body.

So finally I let go of everything. My job, apartment, way of living and went on a 6 month trip around the world with my sister. And believe me - I was scared to death! Even though I never admitted it at the time. Because not only did I leave all sort of security I had behind, I also felt a huge responsibility for my little sister on this trip. It was all on me. I was 23 and she was 19 when we took off. First stop was the USA, then Australia followed by a couple of weeks in South Africa.

First lesson
Obviously we survived, hehe. But not only that. My sister and I became a lot closer, friends in fact. Which we never really were before. I also got a well needed perspective of what life is all about. Where of one huge life lesson I learned pretty quickly on the trip was that I can't escape how I feel inside. Which is ultimately what creates my outer world. This in turn made me realize that before I could start anything else in my life I had to create an inner peace first. No idea how I would do that though...

Not sure
But life always gives you what you need. Although it took me a few years to truly understand that inner peace isn't something I can deal with later. I have to actually devote my attention and time into creating it now. It won't just appear one morning. It's a process. And up until about two months ago I had no idea why I even tried to create inner peace so badly. I just felt like it was something I really needed to do.

Then I read "A New Earth" and "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle. (Which I wrote about in my post -->Good Morning. ) Books I had heard about on Oprah, but not really paid anymore attention to. Then one day my sister tells me she bought them. So I read them and had a quite a few aha-moments. It wasn't like I read something all new, more like things made more sense to me after I read these books. It also made it easier and sped up the process of creating my inner peace. Because now I had some tools to work with. Yay!

Changing my world
Although my inner peace and I are not 100 percent connected all the time, it's always with me in the background now. And it's truly a wonderful, calm and happy place to see and experience the world from. A complete opposite from the world I lived in 6 years ago. It also shows me that it is indeed my inner state that creates my outer world. Because as I have changed from within - the world has changed with me. But I haven't changed the world - only how I perceive and interact with it. Which is what truly makes all the difference.

Still learning
Now, it has taken me 6 years to begin to make some sort of sense out of life and how I can live it to the best of my ability. So these days I feel like a child who has just taken his/hers first steps - Wow, this is so cool! And I want to walk all the time. But it doesn't mean I can walk perfectly, run or even teach anyone else how to walk. What I can do though is share how I learned to take the first step on my spiritual journey.

Besides Tolles books I also recently stumbled across a wonderful documentary called "This Sacred Earth: The 2012 Phenomenon". A lovely documentary by filmmaker Billie Dean about The 2012 Phenomenon (which I find fascinating) as well as about many tings Tolle talk about in his books. Which is why I felt it affected me positively and reassured me that I'm indeed on the right path. So below is the trailer.

To find out more about this documentary check out:

And this is my favourite quote from the documentary:

"There is nothing to fear about a date out there. Remember, man is the one who made the dates. The Universe doesn't go on mans time. Time is an illusion anyway, it doesn't really exist. We are probably the only species in the Universe that has found a way to measure something that does not exist."

- Dolores Cannon, past-life regressionist and hypnotherapist, about The 2012 Phenomenon.

This statement made me think about something else I heard, can't remember where though... But imagine if you visited the Earth for the first time and there were no humans on it. Who would you ask "What time is it?".

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